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I’m small and it’s OK

I’m small and it’s OK

The new year is here and as usual, I have big ideas.

Grow my blog! Lose all the weight!  Be the best wife, mother and homeschooler EVERRRRR!


After almost a half century of life, I also know myself.  The first week of January I will be all gung ho, spend all the money, do all the things…and I will crash and burn before Martin Luther King Day rolls around.  I will, very quickly, come face to face with the fact that I am small and I need God.

Looks like I’m not alone.

From Emily Freeman’s book Simply Tuesday (referral)

(Jesus) constantly turned to his Father in everything refusing to hold his own glory, walking as the most dependent man who ever lived.  And now the Spirit of the most dependent man who ever lived has made his home in us.

If it’s good for Jesus, it’s good for me.

There are so many ways our smallness shows up in mothering and homeschooling, especially when you are introverted and sensitive. Heck, just the sheer amount of talking at me here on a daily basis is enough to make me cry!

I think many of us were taught in various ways, mistakenly, how big we are. How we were expected to fix others, to make them happy.  Unfortunately, that never really worked, did it?  We were told we had God’s job and it was impossible for little us, although we tried. We were shamed for being small, and I know I still carry that inside me like a lump of hot coal.

Instead of forgetting or running from my own smallness, what if I chose instead to look it in the face, to settle down into the place where I am, to notice what is happening around me on my ordinary days? What if these small moments are the very portal into experiencing the kingdom of God? I believe they are — and if we miss them, we miss everything. We run right by the kingdom’s doors, and no matter where we go, we have missed the door that leads us home.

I’m not saying I, or you, shouldn’t have goals and dream dreams. I think they are important. But let’s embrace our own smallness, our own small moments:

…reading to your insatiable toddler (extra points for the same story over and over), feeling your heart swell to the vision of your child on stage for the first time, explaining long division, explaining long division again, spill wiping, laundry doing, staying up late listening when your body is screaming for your bed, burning dinner, and laughing to family jokes over take-out.

This is it. This is the kingdom of God. Right here in your midst.

I’m slowly coming to grips with my own smallness. I’m small, and it’s OK. In fact, it’s beautiful.

Learning to Swim

Learning to Swim

I was watching a Brave Writer video the other day on copywork and learning disabilities (linked below). In it, speech-language pathologist Rita Cevasco is talking about choosing the difficulty level of your students’ work when she says,

“You’re not learning how to swim when you are drowning.”

You are not learning how to swim when you are drowning.

Is anyone else having bells go off in their head when they hear that?

Not just about your students, but about you?

How often we are drowning as HSPs and moms??  The noise, the smells, the chaos and lack of sleep? The never-ending-ness of it if you are also homeschooling? Or have littles and are up at night so one day just blends into night and into the next day?

And how many of us just push and push through, telling ourselves that it shouldn’t be this hard, so we must be doing something wrong…it’s US so we’ll just keep trying to be like the non-HSPs next door.

Yet *denying* that that is my reality, that I am sometimes (often) drowning and not swimming, doesn’t help me any!  “I should be able to do more! I should be able to stand this!” Saying these things does not make them true.

We need to learn to live within our abilities, even if they are less than we want, even if others are shaming us for them, even if we are “disappointing” people.  In the end, that is on them, not you.  It absolutely hurts when the condemnation gets aimed at us, but *they* are wrong, not you.

I know there are so many things we can’t drop if we are mothers and homeschoolers.  SO. MANY.

But maybe we can jump way back, out of the minds of others where shame and condemnation live (sometimes our own minds are the worst for this), out of the culture that bases worth on productivity and usefulness, and think about ourselves and our own needs.  Pray for wisdom about what is yours to carry.

When I’m not drowning, the gifts God has gifted me with get a chance to shine and be used.  Little by little I’m learning to swim.



Here’s the Brave Writer Video.



Seven Quick Takes – First Post Edition

Seven Quick Takes – First Post Edition


I can only stare at a blank screen for so long before paralysis by analysis sets in — otherwise known as blog-writer’s-block.  So instead of waiting until some perfect “first post” scenario hits my brain, I’m going to jump into this blog with a Seven Quick Takes! So, welcome!  I’m still sprucing things up and in the process of writing several new posts. Please check back!


My hope is that this blog will turn into a place to share about our homeschooling journey and about being a homeschooling mom who is highly sensitive and introverted.  I’m going to share resources on being highly sensitive, introverted, creative, empathic and/or gifted.  Mostly, I want this to be a place where it’s OK to be who you are…any, all, or none of the above.


This blog was born out of a very strong need to embrace who I am. God made me as a highly sensitive individual for His good purposes, and I find the more I accept that and act accordingly, the happier I am.  Now, if the whole world would just understand, that’d be great. 😉


Like it says in my about me page, I have five children. We’ve been homeschooling for 11 years, 12 if you count our first run with kindergarten that we then repeated the next year with our oldest.  Last summer, I crashed and burned so bad I put the youngest 4 in school.  It didn’t help, for a variety of reasons, and we will be bringing them back home again in June, with the exception of my 14 year-old, who will be attending high school.  So this year I’m homeschooling just my 10th grade daughter. I say “just,” but she’s intense and wonderful and dyslexic/LD, so it’s no walk in the park.  I’m looking forward with trepidation to having most of them home again!


My children are all manner of personality types/abilities –

16yo (10th grade):  extremely extroverted, creative, global thinker, dyslexic (but loves reading and writing stories), LDs, highly sensitive, artist

14yo (8th grade): extremely introverted, quiet when out but not at home, black and white thinker, will try anything once, highly sensitive in some ways and totally not in others, loves creative writing, her and her older sister are like oil and water but they try to make it work (when they are not screaming at each other, lol)

11yo (5th grade): peaceful and joyful best describe her, loves to laugh, has an amazing memory, generous, also introvert

9yo (3rd grade):  Extroverted, fiery, highly sensitive, generous, needs excitement and has an insatiable appetite for love, always has.

6yo (kindergarten):  another class clown here, lol, he’s the youngest and only boy. He’s gifted in math, loving, funny, sensitive, loves his Mom and playing on the iPad.

I almost forgot our latest addition – Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy, our guinea pig! Handsome, rich, refined, shy…oh wait, that’s the other Mr. Darcy.

They’re all wonderful and I’m so lucky to have them. I’m going to go hide in my room now.


Please feel free to comment and let me know what you’d like to read about here, now or any time in the future…I know that I’m not the only highly sensitive homeschooler out there, by far!  I’d love to know what your needs are and hear about your strategies and successes, also!


To see if you are a highly sensitive person, you can take this self test at Elaine Aron’s website, The Highly Sensitive Person. I scored a 25 out of 27, and probably could have said yes to all of them, since the instructions say to indicate yes even if it’s only somewhat true of you. So yes, I’m highly sensitive! If you took the test, how did you do?

For more of Seven Quick Takes, please visit Jen at Conversion Diary!


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